So everything I wrote yesterday in this blog was true. But there was more to say. There is more to say because sometimes when we don't speak up, speak out, say what we need to say, or essentially live our lives, there could be other things at work as well.
We can remain silent in words and actions, living quietly hoping that no one sees us because are afraid to be ourselves. When we allow others to control our decisions, we have handed them power over our lives. I don't speak up because I believe you think my thoughts are simple, silly and non important. I choose not to act because I have given you the power to silence me. You have become my authority, my master, dictating what I say, when I say it, and how I act or behave.
As a Christian I believe I serve one master. Well, let's be honest, scripture speaks to only being able to serve one master, as a normal human being, I have not perfected this. My goal is to try and rededicate myself every day to the one opinion that matters, God's.
After I wrote yesterday's blog, I heard from a friend who confessed to also struggling with these same thoughts. She heard God speak to her, "just write". It reminded me of the first time I spoke publicly as a professional. It was in front of 800 junior high students and I was terrified! Terrified enough to cry continuously, confess constantly at my lack of being ready, and fear that I had made a huge mistake. I readied myself that day repeating this mantra "If one child hears how deeply they are loved by God, then that is why I came. Just one child."
And then it was as clear as if God was standing right next to me. I heard him say, "I don't care if all 800 of these students walk away not getting anything. I brought these 800 students here for you. I wanted you to trust me. I wanted you to follow me, and start this journey. I brought them here so you would say yes to me and trust me to walk you through this."
We so easily forget that we only have one small piece of the puzzle. That God in his infinite wisdom and direction is doing many things in our lives and in the world all at the same time. We are but one small piece of the masterpiece. But our piece is important and our voice is needed. Our voice and our life is needed because God does work that we do not see when we live our lives trusting him. I may think what I do is small compared to so many others working to fight AIDS, Hunger, Poverty. I get down on myself and believe the lie and stay quiet. Then Satan wins, and I don't play my part. We aren't supposed to know the effects of each of our actions, we are just supposed to live and trust God to work. When we stay silent we harden our hearts to the kind of love and trust and faith that God has so sacrificially given to us. We say no to the greatest gift ever given.
The last thing that really struck me as I was thinking about that post, was how easy it is to live quietly. I think many people, including myself, are scared to live big lives. Lives that are full of real strong opinions, or lives that take risks and chances. Lives that pursue dreams or stand up for what we believe in. It is terrifying to put yourself out there. When you put yourself, your thoughts, your opinions, your beliefs, your heart, your soul out there, you leave yourself open for judgement. Now everyone can really see you, who you are, what you are about. They will see all of you, not just the clean version of yourself you portray to everyone. Living a big life doesn't mean starting the next big thing that will change the world, it simply means being the truest version of yourself you can be. It means trusting your voice. Loving yourself. Living for God. That is living a big life, and that my friends can be terrifying.
So there isn't just one lie to believe to keep you chained down, your heart hidden away, dreams tucked in your childhood treasure box. There are many lies, many fears to fight through to have confidence in your voice, your life, your faith, your heart.
Let's fight the lies my friends. Let's slay the dragon and move on. I don't know about you, but I need more alive people in my life, and I can wait for someone else to start, but that would just be another lie.
It starts with you.
It starts with me.
You have a voice.
I have a voice.
We can remain silent in words and actions, living quietly hoping that no one sees us because are afraid to be ourselves. When we allow others to control our decisions, we have handed them power over our lives. I don't speak up because I believe you think my thoughts are simple, silly and non important. I choose not to act because I have given you the power to silence me. You have become my authority, my master, dictating what I say, when I say it, and how I act or behave.
As a Christian I believe I serve one master. Well, let's be honest, scripture speaks to only being able to serve one master, as a normal human being, I have not perfected this. My goal is to try and rededicate myself every day to the one opinion that matters, God's.
After I wrote yesterday's blog, I heard from a friend who confessed to also struggling with these same thoughts. She heard God speak to her, "just write". It reminded me of the first time I spoke publicly as a professional. It was in front of 800 junior high students and I was terrified! Terrified enough to cry continuously, confess constantly at my lack of being ready, and fear that I had made a huge mistake. I readied myself that day repeating this mantra "If one child hears how deeply they are loved by God, then that is why I came. Just one child."
And then it was as clear as if God was standing right next to me. I heard him say, "I don't care if all 800 of these students walk away not getting anything. I brought these 800 students here for you. I wanted you to trust me. I wanted you to follow me, and start this journey. I brought them here so you would say yes to me and trust me to walk you through this."
We so easily forget that we only have one small piece of the puzzle. That God in his infinite wisdom and direction is doing many things in our lives and in the world all at the same time. We are but one small piece of the masterpiece. But our piece is important and our voice is needed. Our voice and our life is needed because God does work that we do not see when we live our lives trusting him. I may think what I do is small compared to so many others working to fight AIDS, Hunger, Poverty. I get down on myself and believe the lie and stay quiet. Then Satan wins, and I don't play my part. We aren't supposed to know the effects of each of our actions, we are just supposed to live and trust God to work. When we stay silent we harden our hearts to the kind of love and trust and faith that God has so sacrificially given to us. We say no to the greatest gift ever given.
The last thing that really struck me as I was thinking about that post, was how easy it is to live quietly. I think many people, including myself, are scared to live big lives. Lives that are full of real strong opinions, or lives that take risks and chances. Lives that pursue dreams or stand up for what we believe in. It is terrifying to put yourself out there. When you put yourself, your thoughts, your opinions, your beliefs, your heart, your soul out there, you leave yourself open for judgement. Now everyone can really see you, who you are, what you are about. They will see all of you, not just the clean version of yourself you portray to everyone. Living a big life doesn't mean starting the next big thing that will change the world, it simply means being the truest version of yourself you can be. It means trusting your voice. Loving yourself. Living for God. That is living a big life, and that my friends can be terrifying.
So there isn't just one lie to believe to keep you chained down, your heart hidden away, dreams tucked in your childhood treasure box. There are many lies, many fears to fight through to have confidence in your voice, your life, your faith, your heart.
Let's fight the lies my friends. Let's slay the dragon and move on. I don't know about you, but I need more alive people in my life, and I can wait for someone else to start, but that would just be another lie.
It starts with you.
It starts with me.
You have a voice.
I have a voice.